for our Lord will give us strength
we will fly like the eagle
we will rise again
this has been another confusing week. dunno why lifes getting so complicated now. maybe im the one complicating things. i dunno. anyway. when life is too simple i complain its dull and boring. when life gets complicated i run away and hide and wish it would uncomplicate itself. what is it with humans and the funny thing called satisfaction?
im glad the SAT is over. even if i did screw up. at least its over. no more bringing heavy practice tests to school, no more tearing the tests late at night, no more chionging tests in the lib after school. wow my life sounds quite free now. lol. thanks for giving me my life back man. haha.
i think its time to find myself. seriously. stop snickering! its not funny. in the rushing here and there and doing stuff its so easy to lose yourself and your sense of who you really are. and you end up being influenced by others whose sense of self is stronger than yours so much so that they can affect you when u cant find ur self anymore. really! i dunno if im e only one in this whole wide world who feels that this can happen but yeah, i think that it can happen and i think it happens alot with me. maybe my sense of self is not that strong. but i didnt realise that it was happening until the dec holidays last year. it was then that i had time to relax, just mope ard at home and just be me for awhile. and it was only then that i realised how different i can be at times. so this year i've been reminding myself [sometimes unsuccessfully tho] to remain true to myself. to do what i wanna do, when i wanna do and dont compromise too much just to make pple happy. its more impt to be happy yourself. because u can never finish making pple happy. but of course that doesnt give anyone any excuse to become grumpy, selfcentered and extremely selfish. everything in balance, my dears. haha.
okay so thats the end of the lesson of life today. lol. im off now. its monday again tmr! lets hope this week is a better week! cheers.
a star fell from the sky;
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